For the past 8 months, my life has felt out of control. I’ve struggled to balance the demands of work, church, blogging, working out, time in the Word, housework, friends, and of course, my family. Unfortunately, I’ve failed miserably.
My health has suffered, my marriage has suffered, my house has suffered…and I’ve been a basket case. Every night, after a long day of work, followed by soccer games, dinner, homework and praying with the kids, I’d head to the computer to “catch up” on blog stuff. My husband would implore me to come to bed while I would plead with him for “one more minute”. One minute became ten, ten minutes became an hour, and more often than not, by the time I made it to bed, it was well past midnight and my husband was sound asleep.
I burned the midnight oil only to find that I was less productive during the day. Sometimes I’d wake up in the morning to find that I’d posted a deal I had no recollection of posting. Sometimes I’d check my blog only to find that the things I’d posted in the wee hours of the morning made absolutely no sense.
I struggled to find balance…yet it continued to allude me. Time management has never been my strong suit and to make matters worse, I’m easily distracted. A quick trip to the office to “check my email” could easily turn into an hour chatting on Twitter, reading other blogs, and posting or snagging a great deal.
I knew something need to change, but I wasn’t sure what. My schedule was packed during the week and it seemed like every weekend we had a trip planned or something major going on at home.
By the second week of October, I was at the end of my rope…yet I managed my “everything is under control and going well” facade. I had traveled to Knoxville at the end of September, headed to New Hampshire in the beginning of October, and came home to about a month’s worth of laundry and housework. I knew that things weren’t going to slow down. To add to my misery, my sweet friend Cici passed away. I was faced with how fleeting life was and I knew I wasn’t living mine to the fullest. In the midst of this craziness, I was supposed to be getting ready to head to a blogging conference. I honestly considered staying home. Fortunately, I had a sponsor to represent. I was excited to share my love of Terralina with the blogging community and staying home meant that I wouldn’t be fulfilling my commitment. Little did I know that Relevant would be more than an answer to my prayers.
Stay tuned for The Struggle For Balance: Part 2.